This fucking emptiness n loneliness will be the end of me. So sick of feeling this way. I thought I had everything in control, but no, everything's getting out of hand, and I'm just here watching my world fall apart.  

I knew this was going to happen, so I'm not blaming you for anything you've ever did. I wasn't angry either. I should be, but I'm not. Instead, I felt pain, a lot of pain. And the worst part was I thought that I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong. 

Miss blogging so much. It's really a space for me to rant n spill everything out without having the thought that I'd bore or annoy anyone. 

So much things have changed, and I'm still trying my best to pull myself together after that incident. This darkness is ruining every goddamn thing I have in my life. Fuck feelings, fuck people, fuck emotions, just fuck it.